Without Reasons

By Harlot Meretrix

You’re the only thing that’s holding me down
But how do I know if I’m going the wrong way
I need some way of knowing
I need a voice to say
My mother calls me a tramp
And it always makes me hurt inside
So much that I feel like I want to run real far away and hide
I always knew that eventually everything would catch up
But I never knew that it would come that very day
I’m still trying to figure out how I got stuck with all this shit I’ve got to pay
But…
Everyone always says
I’m not gonna live like my mother
And that they aren’t going to live like their father
But guess what
They end up living like them both
I’ve worked so hard
And I am breaking
As my dreams get thrown against the wall
I hit myself to feel the pain
But I can’t feel at all
I wish I understood why I always cry
But, I’m a fighter
And I’m not going to give up before I die